lenten season
this time of the year always puts me in a weird mood…i know that this season is a time to reflect on yourself and figure out who you are spiritually…i know that i am a catholic…i go to church…i say my prayers…i ask him for help / guidance / advice…but what does that all mean…i feel like there is something more that i need to be feeling…and it may just all come in time but as many ppl know, im kinda impatient with not knowing whats gonna happen…furthermore, i don’t think that i am still completely over what happened to my father…not in the sense that i want to forget about it and that i don’t care…i do care, HES MY FATHER…but i am still looking for that closure…that door is still open and will remain open until some dialogue gets underway…but chasing after that dialogue is another challenge in itself…
anyway i was thinking about what i was going to give up this year…now the things you give up is suppose to be a symbol of the cross that GOD carried for 40 days (or thats how i see it at least)…it was a struggle…it was hard…but he pushed on because he knew that there was a purpose for it…so in turn the things that we give up should have a purpose to it…right?…it should make us better ppl right?…it should have a purpose right?…
which got me thinking…having all my social media readily accessible to me in the form of my phone or computer has made me kinda dependent on it…i always have to check it even though i know nothing has changed…i get a little rush in being able to reply to a comment or poke someone the instant it gets posted…and i freak if i don’t have my phone when i leave the house knowing that i cant tweet or update my status once something funny or ridiculous happens…and now to think about it…im pretty sure that is called addiction…to some degree…so whats the logical thing to do…give it up right…thats what i thought and what i wanted to do…BUT a friend put some things in perspective for me…yes, the world has become and is becoming a virtual one…one where we live though our avatars and profile pictures..one where we know where ppl are because they checked in on Facebook or foursquare…one where you know someone is having a bad day because they made a little 420 character rant as their status…AND i want to be better than that…i want to be able to take the time and effort to reach out to ppl…with a phone call…a letter…a text…and email…the old-ish ways…BUT the sector of business that i am in/want to go into relies heavily on these social media tools because as mentioned before, the whorl is becoming a virtual one…and having applied to several positions that have asked for my social media accounts, i believe that it would not be smart to disable them…so here is what this years lenten season has come down to…
what im giving up:
- all my social media (Facebook, twitter, tumblr, youtube) EXCEPT for 1 hr 1 day a week to be able to check all my accounts for important messages…also i am deleting my Facebook and Twitter apps on my phone
- all fried foods…sound familiar…yea i kinda failed last time…so im gonna try it again…and by all fried food that means all deep, pan, semi, lightly fried
- limitation of my all my carbs…to bread only for lunch when i decide to bring/buy a sandwich…and only 1 cup of rice a week…
what i hope to gain:
- more time for ME
- clarity on my sprituality
- clarity on myself and who i am and who i want to become
- closure/answers on some aspects/questions of my life
“let go and let GOD”
